My city was built around this place, in fact the church on top of the hill is the very first building here. It's called till today "Ermita del Carmen" cuz it was an hermitage founded by Juan Corz and italian Hermit back in 1620...I apologize for the quality of the pics but were taken this morning with my phone, cuz I run on this trails every morning...

I did my first communion here, in this church.

Guatemala city wasn't always here, this is actually it's 3rd location cuz they kept building it around volcanoes so many earthquakes and a flood force the city to move many times in it's early days, the first location of the city it's called now Ciudad Vieja (Old City) and it's like 45 minutes away from here, that city was destroyed by a flood, the huge amount of rain we've got here filled the top of an inactive Vulcan and it came down over the city in 1541 here the link to the wiki article on "El Volcán de Agua" (Water Vulcano), then they moved the city to the Alotenango Valley, now known as Antigua Guatemala (Old Guatemala) this city was destroyed by a 7.4 earthquake in 1717 till they moved the city to it's actual location around the Hermit hill in 1775...we're still here after many earthquakes cuz for some reason this place is also built under tha view of several active vulcanoes :P

So back t the hill, well it's located two blocks away from my house and I practically grew up there, we learned how to ride a bike in a fountain that was a gift from the Mexican state to our country in 1931 and it's still there, we went there to play when kids and to walk and talk while we were young...this place was abandoned though for decades, it has been part of the history of our country yet became a very dangerous place for a while. 

There are many legends around this place, we remember one specially. It was about a famous thief called "Pie de Lana" cuz he entered rich people houses without making a noise, he was very well known and people (poor people) remember him with affection as a hero for those oppressed. He was hanged to death here in a huge tree and our Granny always said to us that the spirit of him used to wander around that tree...I don't need to say how terrified we were of passing by that tree LOL  actually this tree :) I still don't go near to it :P

You probably recognize some of the landscape cuz many of my children posts take place here, we go there around 3 or 4 times a week to play and run and stuff, kids loved it and it's a place for them to know kids around here, it's always crowded with children and couples, I'm glad the state is trying to recover this place, the structures are ancient as they have been there for more than a century, some of them even older but it still has a charming mood...it's safer now but sadly that means it's kind'a closed, it only opens during day time and when I was young it was an open place :/

I'm glad I got the chance to share with you part of my city and also part of my day :)

First thing first

Also I'm spending the day at the mountains so this post was written yesterday and posted as "future" :O see yall tonight :)

I've done this before so here's the link to it pics and basic info about me and principal takes in politics :P http://xxxlovelylollipop.xanga.com/760273824/me-for-new-readers-p/

Also I'm awfully terribly shy yet I've made a couple of very short and awkward vlogs:

If you don't want to click on the links, few things about me:

• I'm 31, single mom of 2
• I teach literature and introduction to philosophy to sophomores
• I'm a conservative catholic (not that bad I promise :P)
• My daughter is 6 years old and my son is 15, she's a dancer and he's a skater :)

on Xanga:

I have real friendships here, I'm real friend with some very controversial xangans and I love them all so if you have a problem with Dj, Rez, Ruth, @foliagedecay (no one has a problem with him as he's such a sweetheart but just in case), or actually anyone on my friends list, well that's too bad :P

I'm very shy so xanga chat usually makes me really uncomfortable, please don't be upset if I don't chat much.

@lenybobsyouruncle after my children he's the most important person in my life (brother/guardian angel/best friend ever)

I'm very opinionated but really hate getting into fights, sadly I do it more often than I wish :P

You can drag me into surveys, challenges, bandwagons, protests, yup I'll gladly join if I think it's funny :)   Bede (@saintblue1131) can drag me into anything I think, we're very good friends here on Xanga and also in fb Sims LOL...it's the only thing I play and greatly enjoy... @stupidsystemus and @lkjslain are also my Sims buddies. Feel free to add me in fb too http://www.facebook.com/nadiagodoygt

I try my best to keep up with posts but it's hard for me to do it during summer cuz kids want to be out most of the time so please be indulgent with me, also please be patient with the language thing cuz I struggle with English a lot.

I've never done this before but I guess it'd be awesome to answer any question you may have about me or w/e lol so ask away ^-^

Today is mother's day in my country, it's always a hard day for me... truth is I find painful to face the fact that I am in many aspects the mom I wish I had, I've grew up building myself into something completely opposite to what my mom was and I've done this on purpose most of the time.   Don't get me wrong, I love my mom the same way every daughter does and she says she loves me too even I never felt she did.   You see, it's a big deal when you know (deep in your heart) that you mom doesn't love you the way she loves the rest of siblings because, if the person who's supposed to love you the most, doesn't loves you, how can anyone else do?

I always thought I'd get her when I became a mom, sadly as the years pass and I see my children growing up I get her even less. I adore my kids in such an overwhelming way, it's hard to understand what is it about me that she finds so upsetting...she says it's easy to love my children cuz they're awesome, it's true but I know I'd love them anyway, I loved them before I knew them...so what is it about me? this has bothered me since I can recall and has been a huge topic within the family as it's pretty obvious and no one really gets why she can't love me, she's such a caring woman, so sweet to everyone else...some theories have been exposed by siblings and relatives about it...I'm writing this just cuz I don't get it.

1.   Incompatible personalities. She says it's not that she doesn't love me but just that she can't stand me lol She's very outgoing, strong and independent...and I'm me, too docile...too shy...to much of a wuss...she says I'm exactly all she dislikes in female clichés.

2.   She and I failed at bounding as she was too busy working to breastfeed me and the link suffered from it. It was early 80's she was building her career and breastfeeding wasn't all that important back then, but she didn't breastfeed any of us, why the link broke just with me?

3.   Disappointment.   My dad thinks she had higher expectations for me and that I've disappointed her by being quite ordinary :O 

4.   Frustration. My aunt thinks she never wanted to have children and she felt I was slowing her down when I was born (I'm her first born as my older brothers are from my dad's first marriage).

5.   She's evil LOL my younger brother says "there's evil in that heart"...I always feel guilty about this cuz my mom LOVE him so much and he's always angry at her because she can't love me :\ sick cycle, she can't love me so my brother (who's everything to her) gets angry and reject my mom so she hates me for it :P

What I think? *sigh* I think it doesn't really matters anymore, I wanted her to love me when I was a child, when I was scared and needed her to comfort me...right now I really don't need her to love me... I still think a lot and make constants reviews to my childhood years wondering why but even with the vast amount of info I have in my head I can't see how I managed to lose the love of my mom on my own...I was never mistreated, I've had the same material goods my siblings had and I've had the same opportunities in life so I really can't complain. I wonder how would have been my life if she were to love me while growing up... I do think about it but just out of curiosity.

One thing I know, I'm the mom I am because of her...so even if there was no love for me in her heart she did a wonderful job ^-^ cuz there's no way I'd make my children feel the way I felt...they both know for sure how much I love them and they know that's not going to change ever...